mooners journal

Hey! today was another interesting day. It started out good, but then my family started getting into a big fight! It wasn't cool at all. But anyways after like 4 hours of people yelling everything finally calmed down. So now i am just sitting here at home doing nothing... SOCKER!! i know!

So i was goin to see if Mo wanted to have a sleepover tonight but she told me that she was havin a sleepover wit her other friend so i might go to the mall with her tomorrow wich will be fun! It will be a big change from just sitting here all day lol.

So i am really confused right now, there is this guy i like, and i think he likes me back but i'm not sure. He lives down the street, but i haven't talked to him for like a week cuz i went to youth conference, and the last time i talked to him he was mad... or sad i'm not sure wich one. And it made me mad at first cuz he wasn't being nice.. but then i got all sad, and then this guy i was at youth conference with told me not to worry about it, he was just having a bad day. So i am just waiting for him to get online cuz i am to scared to call him haha i am sooo lame! But like really i stay up all night just waiting for him! He is the 2nd sweetest guy i have ever met, the first one is a guy who lives in idaho haha! Shame Shame! So yea this is me being all confused about guys! Sometimes i wish i could go back to 6th grade and have a little crushes on max wendler and fanticize over him, lol but no! i had to grow up and start haveing more than just crushes... but yea

Well i think am goin to go now this is gettin kinda boring and kinda depressing thinking about guys so yea

till next time- mooner

Hey, its been a while! Today has been an interesting day... so i pretty much did nothing all day and then at like 7 i got a call. It was my little brother tellin me that he volenteered me to watch him and his 3 friends. I wasn't to happy but i knew i would get paid so i said yes. So they guy told me that he would only be gone for two hours, but he was gone for 5. Haha never go babysitting alone with 4 boys! They all got in a big fight and one punched the other and yea... it wasn't good at all. So i kinda freaked out at them and one of them went home hehe woops. But yea now i am sittin home wishin someone would talk to me lol.

Well my cousins have come and gone, it was a blast while they were here! Even though lots of bad crap happend, but we won't get into that. I have been to so many camps this summer i want to die! I went to girls camp, then another usless camp, youth conference wich was fun.., cheer camp! ahhhh to many camps. And in like a week i am going to efy with Mo. But hey that should be way way fun.

Hmm... well we only have like one more month of summer! And that makes me really mad! Cuz i don't want to go back to school! And i am kinda scared to be starting high school, i don't know anyone who is going to my high school... well i do they are all dorks though! I wish i was goin to davis is all my friends, but o well. I guess i will make lots of new friends.

Well my dad is being a butt once more.. he has all this money to spend on new cars and trips to canada every other weekend, but he can't go and pay a little ortho bill. So now i can't go back to the ortho till he pays it... i can't even get my braces off! haha its kinda funny but sad. But i am gettin bored of this so i am goin to go to bed now! talk to you soon

till then -mooner

yea so yesterday when i was sayin i was pissed at my dad.. well i was pissed cuz for the past three days my dad has been promising to take me out to dinner. So i have waited and waited... so on friday he calls me and tells me that he just got off work and he was way tired. so he said he would take me saturday. So on saturday i call him to see what time he wanted to go and he was at some race thing with his friends till like 2 in the morning, so i was kinda mad. so on sunday (fathers day) i called him, wished him happy fathers day and he told me that he would come right down and see me... well 6 hours later he called and said that he was mowing the lawn and riding his motercycle... so i really got pissed then to. so yea thats why i was pissed at my dad.

well i gotta so ttyl till next time

-mooner

Hello, today is fathers day, and i have been waiting for my dad to call but i think he is a little to busy to call me. so think week has been ok. Mo has been in Europe for the past two weeks, and she just got back last night. i went up to see her and i was way way way way way way happy to see her! haha i don't think she likes me much anymore... :( but she brought me back three things, a really really pretty braclet, and a pen, and a cool candle thing!

So on friday i am goin to a camp thing down in manti. It should be pretty fun, and my cuz lexa is comin up friday for two weeks! its goin to be soo fun! but she has to go to efy for one of the weeks wich sux! and my brothers graduation in on the 30th its goin to be cool!

so right now i am pissed at my dad, cuz he promised me that i could go to europ with Mo, and then he said that he didn't have enough money. so i didn't go. but then he went out and bought himslef a motercyle. I am soo mad!!!! anyways...

well i like a new guy i call him cup cake.. haha! he is sooo sweet! hehe yea and all the other guys that i liked so much like dan and sid, are alll dorks and jerks!!! i hate them... but yea. i have been stayin up till like 3 in the morning just talking to him on yahoo! :P

well i gotta go.
till next time -mooner

hello! Today is a boring day! rr i hate it, all i am doing today is sitting around and watching movies... haha.

Well school is out and i am so happy its not funny! But summer is going to be boring! all my friends are going to be out of twon like thw whole time.. right now one of my best friends is in Paris France. And let me tell ya, i am jelouse lol. but my cuz lexa is coming up in a few weeks and i am way excited to see her!

Boys can be so stupid! (hehe i know good change in subject) like dan.. and sid, and brandon, and all the other guys i know! all they do is talk about nasty stuff, and its really starting to bug me. lol but at the same time, some guys are sooo sweet! Like austin, he is so sweet and hott, but he lives like and hour away so i never get to see him! and aj he is the sweetest! but what do you know, he lives in idaho! it sux! haha! anyways...

yea i really don't know what eles to say lol so i will just go and come back later!

- Mooner

Hey, Its been a while! Almost a month! Anyways things have been so nuts! Like my heath, and school!! but luckly i got my heath under control.. for now anyways. And school is just plain out nuts!!! I have missed so much freakin school! I though i was going to fail 9th grade, but luckly all my teachers are going to pass me. So thats a good. And i am way way happy cuz there is only 9 more days of school!!!! and really the last week is a breez! I am soo freaking excited! This summer is goin to be fun.

So.... yea i don't really have much to say. My puppy is doing good, he is 6 months old, and getting BIG! Hes so cute, but such a dork! Yesterday i was taking him for a walk with my friend Mo. And he started to eat somthing, i didn't know what it was, then i looked closer.... it was a freaking mouse!! I man i thought i was going to loose it all! Haha it was so gross!

so i guess thats all i have to say for now!

till next time-mooner

Don't u just hate doctors!? well i do at the moment. yes i am having stomach problems again. it hurts really bad today, but the thing that makes me even more mad. in the past week i have been to 6 different doctors, and they didn't do anything. yesterday i was supposed to get an oltrasound, but the lady got sick so they had to cancle it. so my mom took me up to primary childrens hospital where we spent our whole day. it was way boring and painful. after like 5 hours we got to go home. but i wasn't to happy cuz they didn't do anything but make me hurt more. Lets just say i was PISSED! So today i am just taking it slow and i have to go talk to all of my teachers with my mom cuz i am so behind its not funny. and i'm so nevious that i'm going to fail all of my classes. but anyhow... i guess i will talk about good stuff now.

So i didn't get to go to the all american rejects/fall out boy/hawthorne heights concert. but i think i'm so ok with it. i mean it would have been so cool to go, but i guess i will see them some day... i hope lol. i am like really really into all american rejects right now. and hwathore heights lol.

Well my puppy is still being a pain in the butt, but he is growing so fast, and he is still the cutest thing i have ever seen. on easter i was hiding eggs for my little step bro. and here comes the dog with a egg in his mouth. he came right up to me and droped it at my feet. haha it was funny.

I can't wait till school is out! it is getting closer and closer. there is 27 more days of school, not counting weekends. and thats only like 6 weeks :D o man i am soooooo happy! besides i get one lagoon day and the last day is just year book sighning day. and i might skip out on sdjh and go to fjh. cuz i'm going to have a fjh year book... so i guess i would like to have my friends at fjh to sign it. but yea.

This summer should be really fun! my cuz lexa is coming form arazona at the end of June. She is going to efy for the first week, and then staying at my grannys house for another week, so i get to chill with her for a week. It should be fun! Then me and my family might go to disneyland :D wich is always good. but we might wait till september to go.... i wish we would go this summer though but yea.

well i gotta go now so i will ttyl!

-mooner

Wow its been a long time since i have writen anything. Things have been going better my stomach dosn't hurt as bad anymore but we finally found out what was wrong... sists for sure. they suck amywho school has been good. other than dan getting suspended two times in the past two and a half weeks. but yea... now its sprin break. tomorrow i have an ortho appointment and i might hang out with mo. so it should be fun. tuesday is the fall out boy/all american rejects concer but i don't get to go i dont' have a ticket they were all sold out :( i could just die over it! i am in love with all american rejects! and fall out boy! i was crying last night cuz of it lol pathetic i know.... but still

I don't think i ever told u. i got a puppy! he is the cutest thing ever, hes a little golden retrever. o man hes a cutie pie, but a butt at the same time. today he ate the sope from the bathroom. what an ideot!

well spring has finally arvied! i'm so happy that the sun is acutally shining. i'm so sick of snow and rain! i'm so ready for summer. this summer is going to be fun, in june my cuz froggy is coming up and its going to be way fun, then me and my family are going to disneyland and the beach. its going to be way fun! anyways i can't think of anything to say right now so ttyl!

-mooner

I can't take it anymore! this sucks! the pain is getting worse. all i can say is i can't wait to go back to the hospital tomorrow! i need to find out what the heck is going on inside my body! i was talking to my aunt and she said that it is most likely a sist, that has burst. this totally bites! I missed a lot this weekend! I was supposed to go to a party on friday night with gracen. O well... i am just at my grannys right now and i'm getting ready to go back home. i'm not sure if i am going to the first part of school or not. it hurts to walk and stuff. but i will try. but i gotta go now bye bye!

-mooner

Today was good, i started the day off late.... again and got to school just on time for the first bell. First period was good. We started some project things and we were in groups of two, and everyone got to pick their parnter, so of cores i was all by myslef getting ready to start. Then Alex came up to me and asked if i wanted to work with him, so of corse i said yes. So thats good i get to work with a hottie in science lol. 2nd period was funny cuz all the hott guys were maken fun of the teacher lol, i know its bad but it was way funny. 3rd was math and i don't get ANY of it. 4th was skills... B O R I N G 5th of corse my fav. class was ok today mitch was way hott today, and that one kid danile is pretty hott to, he never stops flurting though lol. 6th was seminare, and 7th was probilby the most adveterous class the whole day!

So i get to english and two ppl had to act out romeio and juliet in front of the whole class, so guess who had to be julet... yup me. and danile was romio. and it was the balcony seen. Need i say more..... so after school i was standing outside waiting for my ride and he walkes up to me and told me that when i walk home we should walk home together and stuff... and he said a lot more to i'm just not going to repet it. It really shocked me!

So yea that was my day. and now i am waiting for my mom to get home from work so i can go get my nails done and get help with my math homework. so i will talk to ya soon

-mooner

Wow today has been one heck of a day! So i went to church then i went up to Mo's house. Yea... i told them how sorry i was and stuff. i got to say i feel so much better! O man! It was soo hard to get myself out of the car and walk all the way down her drive way... (wich is a really ling driveway lol) and knocking on the door. But i did it, and i feel so much better that i did! Now hopfully they will except it. but i gotta go now so i will ttyl!

-mooner

So my room is all done now. I can't tell u how happy i am to get that all done and over with! lol but it looks good! But i think i should have gone with blue. We have been painting ALL day!! At first it was fun, then after like three hours it got boring, and i got hungry. So we all took a break and ate some steak, MMMM it was good. Then after dinner we went back to work. And thats when the big fun started. My mom was painting the wall and she acidently flicked the paint on my face and in my hair... i just stood there for about ten seconds and finally said "thanks mom" She looked over and just burst out in laghter. So i decided to get her back and brushed paint on her face. Then for the next ten minutes we had a paint fight! It was tons of fun! But i can get all of the paint out of my hair! I have washed my hair like three times, and it still won't come out lol.

O man i am so tired. I'm so glad its the weekend. It was sooo nice to sleep in this morning! But i will say, i am excited to go back to school on monday. I don't know why, i just like it there. People are nice, and Mitch is there haha. And all the other hotties in that school. I'm not even kidding though! Most of them really do look like David from simple plan, without the ear,lip,and nose rings. But they are hott! well anyone who looks like David Desrosiers is freaking sexy!!!

I am now sitting at my grandmas house trying to find a movie to watch. I think i am going to watch Harry Potter again. hehe I like that show! Its gooooood.... ok so its been a long day, and i'm wiped so i am goin to hit the sheets

So today... was great! It all was boring until 5th. Where i got to work with the handicaped kids and hang with that really really cute guy i was tellin u about. So i had to work with this little hadicaped kid named jake. So i was standing there reading a story to him while he was sitting at the table. And mitch (the hott guys name) looked over and saw that i didn't have a cahir, so he got the chair he was sitting on and brought it over to me and said "here u can have my chair" and i'm siad "o no its ok! i'm fine standing" but he just wouldn't take no for an answer. so i took his chair. lol I was in heven,hes so nice! all the ppl at my new school are nice!

Now i am sitting in the basement listening to music and watching harry potter lol. i'm kinda bored. but tomorrow i am painting my room! Two of my walls are going to be light green, and one is going to be purple. Its going to be cool. And mitch wasn't kidding, he really wants to come see it when its done! ahh i'm going to be freaking out when he comes to my house! haha

BRRRRR! Its so cold down here, last night i slepted with five blankets and i was still cold!! Sorry that was really really randome lol

well i think i am going to go now

-mooner

Ok i'm back... so me and my mom went to homedepot to look at some paint samples for my room. And i was looking through a booklet at all the different colors. So i feel a tap on my shoulder, so i turn around and its the guy i talked to in 5th period today. O man! i was dieing right at the moment!! My face probibly turned bright red, and hes like "hey whats up" i just looked at him and said "just lookin at some pait samples for my room" and hes like "sweet! i like the colors ur picking out. u will have to let me see ur room when ur all done painting it" and i'm just like "yea..." then he said "so want to come meet my dad?" so i went and met his dad and we walked around the stor for a while, then he had to go. OMG i was freaking out! Noone that cute would usally come up to me and say that stuff... well except zack, but he lives far away. But it was awesome!

So anyways the colors we picked out are light green and blue, i can't decide wich one i want though. I'm thinking i am going to go with the light green, cuz i have had blue before. but i gotta go so talk to u soon!

-mooner

So today was my second day going to my new school. I just got to tell ya, I LOVE IT!! Today was a really good day! At first i didn't think that it was going to be a good day at all, cuz when it first started out it was snowing and crap and i was running late. So i got to school and 1st period was way boring but i talked to Alex and another girl... i never got her name. 2nd period was good to, i got to watch the hottest guy do his presentation, it was nice. haha! 3rd was math, but i didn't like my math teacher at all so i changed into a different one, now i love math lol. 4th was really good, and 5th i have to say was the best of all!! I got into class and the teacher called over one of the hott guys and said "u didn't do this yesterday so u have to go correct papers down in the office, and take courtney with u" so he came up graped my arm and said "come on we have to go correct papers down in the offic cuz we screwed up yesterday" i was dieing! so we got down into the office and the teacher had us go into this back room and shut the door. So we went to work talking to eachother every now and then. Then a kid named danile came in and looked at us and said " dude u two should like make out back here! u could totally get away with it!" my eyes got big for a minute, then i decided to act cool about it. So they both look over at me and i'm like "yea.... whats ur name again?" and we all started to giggle. So from there on out me and him were talking the whole time. He was way way way cute! He is my #2 crush. My #1 is zack lol. but anyways. So we were walking back to the class room,and i went to turn up the stars and he graps my arm again and said "lets take the long way back to class" so i smiled and said ok. O what a beutiful moment haha!

Kids are so much different here! Its nothing like fjh at all! At fjh there is groups like the preps, punks, skaters and stuff like that. But here everyone is one big group. And and noone really makes fun of anyone. Its really nice. I feel so loved!! lol

Well i still haven't decided what color to paint my room, but i gotta decide fast cuz we are painting it this weekend! And get this! I get to get my own lap top comuter!!!! I am so freaking excited! haha well i gotta go get some help with my math hw... from... idk some kid down the street!

-mooner

well today was good. I started out the day so nervious i almost puked... lol i know tmi! So i got to school and they had one of the kids show me all of my classes. It was really confusing! i'm not even kidding i go up and down then up and then down all through the day.

So i got to my first period and the teacher told me to sit behind a guy named Alex. So i did. He turned around and said hey "Courtney hows it going?" I was just like "good u?" so we started a conversation. Then a girl came and started talking to us. So i guess u can say i made two friends in that class. Then in second period two guys talked to me... can i say one of them was one of the hottest guys i've ever seen!! i was most likly pikner than a.... well what ever is pink. Third period was ok but i don't get any of my math! rrr! so 4th i had skills and i go to open my locker and it was so jamed! so i had to go get the ppl to help me and all that. 5th period i got to work with all the handicaped kids and then 6 was seminary, i might add that the smeinary teacher is not as good as farmingtons. then 7th was ok.

I don't like the teachers at all, they are not good. But the kids are all good so i'm good to. So i'm happy that i started a new school today. To bad summer is coming lol but i'm still excited cuz i will be going to high school with all of the same kids. well i gotta go now!

-mooner

p.s The guys at my school are way way way hott!!lol

Ok so today i got all checked out of fjh, i am so happy to be out of there but, i will say i am a little sad. I mean i will miss a lot of ppl. And the only reson why i said i only have three friends is cuz i didn't think anyone eles really concidered me as a friend anymore.

So i also went to my new school and got registered. Its going to rele interesting... i've never been to a school that has two levels. haha it is going to stink tomorrow cuz i can't seem to open my stupid locker!! rrr they are so old, they are older than my dad! Lol i am really going to miss my old locker lol! So all of u out there who go to fjh say ur locker sucks, u have no idea! hehe

So when we were walking out of the school there was a HUGE group of kids. So i just walked by and smiled. Then one ask me "want to see my ipod?" so i'm just like "i would love to see ur ipod" so i found out his name... i think its billy haha he was such a dork hehe.

I was at the store tonight. And i was standing in line and a girl named janessa edgington came up to me and told me how much she was going to miss me and that i could call her when ever i needed help. That was really nice of her to do that. she really made my day. I really am going to miss some ppl at fjh just a little list.... Mo, little kiss, biet, drie, jess, charlz, lesile, amber, eddie, mike, brandon, jakei (way way funny and out going i might add!) chrisie, lilly, ryan, dustin, braden, brother west and every other seminary teacher, coach downs, mr. hunt, miss jo, roseanne, janet, jr (haha jr.) hornet (don't say a word mo! lol) emery, shantel, laura, hmm... ok so i lied its a BIG list.

Well i gotta go figure out what in the world i am going to ware tomorrow! lol u got to know how that is... first day want to look good!

-nervous out of my mind! mooner

Ok so everything i have ever said on this stupid thing hasn't been the real me. I was being a selfish brat, and that makes me sad, cuz i know thats not me. Things have just been so crazy! My family, friends, school... having problems with my brother and stuff really made me nuts! i mean some of the things i said on here are so stpid! i don't know why i said them cuz i didn't mean any of it... i mean come on i don't even swar! I can't bealive i said that stuff. I've messed up... i've made mistakes. The thing is everyone makes mistakes right.... well i make big mistakes. I now realize that. so the only thing i can do now is ask for Gods forgiveness and start over. But i'm scared to start over. Cuz i know i'm in it on my own. I don't have friends to help get through it. But that is why i am starting over. To meet new friends. I'm moving and starting at a new school.

So i'm scared to start a new school. Cuz i'm not the best at making friends. And to most ppl i'm not a good friend. And being at a new school, with new ppl and stuff is kinda scary for me. The first day at a new school is always the same. Like ur suddenly on a new planet. Breathing a new atmosphere. Now thats scary!

I think things at a new house will be good. I will have my own room and my own bathroom. well pretty much i get the whole basment to myself. It will perfect for all of my simple plan poasters! Living with my family will be really nice. All together... we are all going to be back on out feet again. Mom told me last night that what this family needs is stability. We all need to get back on our feet. It will be great.

So i only have like three friends at the moment, Eddie, Amber, and Brandon. But i think the one who is going to be the best friend is Brandon. Last night when things were so bad he was begging me not to go to a new school. But it turns out he is going to teach my guitar. It will be nice to learn from someone my age.

So... i don't know what eles to say but i'm sorry... this was not the real me and from now on all u will be haring from is the real me.

- scared,confused mooner